Opposition

So I want to walk with God. I want to commune with Him throughout the day. There are times when I forget about this which probably happens because I am lazy and don't really focus my attention on him, or get distracted by things of the world. But there are other times when I am alone, focusing all of my energy on Him, and still I have trouble experiencing Him. I will get random thoughts about terrible things, or get bombarded by distracting thoughts, or sometimes just feel sick or get a headache. These things can't be coming from the world because I am alone and isolated from the world. They can't be coming from my sinful nature because I am trying with all my heart to find God. This is when I see evidence of Satan in my life. This is when I realize that there is much more going on around me than I realize, and that there is a war going on that I have been oblivious to. I don't want to blame everything on Satan or demons, but there are some times when there is no other option for what is oppressing me.

This is when a lot of Christians think that God is just not active in their life, because they seek him and there is still a fog. They think He just didn't show up. That also happened to Daniel when he sought God and there was a literal battle between angels and demons for 21 days before the angels could break through and answer Daniel. Now I'm not saying that happens all the time with us, but I also think "why not". Why doesn't that still happen? Satan is still at war with God and he is constantly prowling around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. And by "someone" the bible is referring to Christians.